Night time
It sure is eerily quiet
The sound of the blades of the fan chasing one another are reassuring
It’s 2.01 a.m.
And i just can’t keep my mind from thinking
My heart from feeling these things
It’s about my sister
Yet, again
I’m amazed at how many times she can inspire me
How i feel touched with her notions and actions
She’s a really decent human being
And i don’t just say that because she’s my sister
You can just tell by looking at her
The way she thanked the McDonald drive-through people
The cashier who attended us when we (technically she) paid
for the games at bowling
The way she says it ; “ terima kasih” while smiling
It was so sincere, she was so sincere
She treats people earnestly
No matter who you are
I’m pretty much amazed because i’m not like her
I tend to send out these snobbish, get out of my way kinda
vibe
She always, i mean always think of others before herself
Upon returning home from university the other day
She quickly had gotten herself a job
And started working a part-time job the very next day
Let me just clarify that she just got off an almost ten-hour
journey ride home from Kedah
To home, Melaka and started working the very next day
She got out to work around 8 o’clock in the morning that day
After many months of not coming home because of palapes
(yes, palapes)
Do you wanna know why she’s desperately searching for
side-incomes?
No, it’s not to buy a new phone or clothes
She wanna help mama to pay for her studies expenses
That’s how selfless she is
She got out every single day in the morning and came home
late after working long hours
My hearts ached when i heard that she sometimes went through
physiotherapy
For her knees because she felt them hurting
It’s obvoiusly the result of her palapes training
But she kept on going to work
Nothing stopped her, not even her sore knees
Yesterday ( i think) she asked me how was my result for the
last sem
I told her it was ok, it went down a lil, but it’s still fine
She told me she had to repeat some papers
A few hours back
I heard the conversation between my mama and my sister
She told mama that she just got back from seeking advise
from her friend
And she’d asked her senior on what should she do
Then, it clicked
My sister was considering to quit her studies
My heart broke a little
That kinda desicion did not come on a whim
She had been thinking, hard
She’s afraid that she’ll not be able to cope her studies any
longer
Mama gave her words of encouragement
And i was dumbfounded
I trully was, and still am
Just looking at her
You could not possibly know the worries and struggles she’s
been through
She kept them hidden so well
I’m very devastated
How can she undergo all of these, cope them
Without me knowing
Compared to her’s all my worries and struggles seemed
trivial
She’s a good person
And i know Allah knows it too
And i am so sure He has the most magnificent plan laid-out
just for my sister
I wished and prayed nothing but the best for her
